Emily completely lets go of her own plans at God’s behest. It takes adjustment, of course.
Emily completely lets go of her own plans at God’s behest. It takes adjustment, of course.
Almost nine years ago, I was walking in the woods behind my house in Tallahassee. The afternoon sun was waning and my infant son was sleeping in his wrap against my chest. I was walking with Him, too—praying, listening. Suddenly, I felt a presence to my right. With my hand on my baby’s head, I …
We look to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, and we praise his name even when the skies are smoky and filled with ash.
That thing you are going through? Jesus has been there. There is nothing difficult that we will experience on earth that Jesus did not endure.
As I work my way through Matthew, a thought crosses my mind: Jesus could have been just a teacher. He could have put all of his earthly energy into speaking the truth about God and training his disciples. He did all of that, of course, but it is important to note just how much time he spent healing— taking illnesses and bearing diseases (Isaiah 53.4, Matthew 8.17, ESV).
Experts cite around 40 distinct examples of Jesus healing in the gospel, but these are simply the instances highlighted in detail. We know there were many more based on the references to Jesus healing multitudes:
So his fame spread throughout all Syria, and they brought him all the sick, those afflicted with various diseases and pains, those oppressed by demons, those having seizures, and paralytic, and he healed them”
Matthew 4.24, ESV
There is a reason I am paying particular attention to the verses on healing; I am in the midst of my own healing journey from a particularly bad spell of anxiety.
I found it odd that I felt a very strong calling from God to start this project, and then 2019—the year I wanted to plan out this blog project—was one of the deepest, muckiest manifestations of anxiety that I have ever experienced. I got very little planning done and spent much of the year in-and-out of doctors’ appointments and meetings with a counselor.
I realize now that God cared less about the branding and graphics for my blog and more about deepening my trust in Him. He wanted me to be humble in my content to include my difficult testimony in hopes of helping others. I’m sifting through my difficult experiences to try and present them in a way that will be helpful to you. When we are deeper into the accounts of the gospel, I’ll have them ready to share.
And so my reading of Matthew occurs through the lens of suffering and the hope of healing. Whether it was with a pen or my forefinger, I pressed into the healing passages, and I noticed something— there was a curious pattern to the healing stories included in Matthew’s account of the gospel: the most remarkable instances of healing are preceded by incredible faith of the afflicted.
The most remarkable instances of healing are preceded by incredible faith of the afflicted.
I began collecting these faith and healing pairings, many of which occur in the 8th and 9th chapters of Matthew:
These situations are, by logical approach, absolutely helpless: a dead girl, a paralytic, an inexplicable chronic ailment. They are the kind of situations that would have doctors shaking their heads grimly, certain that nothing can be done.
And Jesus is right, these instances of faith are worth marveling at:
A leper believes Jesus can heal him from a disease with no known cure in that day.
A group of unnamed people believes Jesus can heal a man from paralysis.
An officer believes Jesus can heal his servant without even seeing him.
A woman with an unusual, twelve-year chronic ailment believes if she touches Jesus’ garment, her health will be restored.
And a ruler, who kneels for no one, kneels before Jesus in faith that he can revive his dead daughter.
Jesus doesn’t need our faith to perform miracles. So what is he doing here? My best conclusion is that he is rewarding the faithful.
He is rewarding the faithful.
Faith is not easy for those who love predictability. Faith is scary for those who want life to be controllable. But as Matthew is clearly illustrating, if you want the miracle–the impossible healing, you need to have faith in He who can heal.
In Lauren Daigle’s song “I am yours,” she addresses the link between faith and healing:
“and those who will kneel
will walk away healed”
Daigle, Lauren. “I am yours.” How Can It Be. Centricity Music, 2015, track 2.
There were times in 2019 when healing from anxiety felt impossible. I felt I was in a pit of mud getting sucked in deeper and deeper. I would grasp at branches near the mud to try and pull myself out, but to no avail. I exhausted myself in my vain mission to save myself.
And yet, in the middle of my misguided struggle I remember having this quiet feeling of hope–however small and far away it seemed; I knew that He would not allow me to stay in the mud forever.
And it became painfully clear that I could not heal myself no matter how feverishly I tried. But He could. Letting go of controlling the season of anxiety and subsequent healing meant I had to surrender to the pit of mud and trust that He would grab my hand and pull me out.
He did. Well, He is. I still have mud on me. I sometimes find a foot stuck back in that same mud pit. But the sooner I lean into faith and release the control, the sooner I find Him pulling me back onto solid ground.
Charles Spurgeon, in his 1865 sermon on healing, focuses on sickness in the spiritual sense, but much of what he says on that can be applied to bodily and mental illness as well. He outlines what we owe Jesus when we are healed:
‘But what is the Physician’s fee?’ asks one, who has vivid memories of earthly doctors’ bills. The fee—oh, the Physician will have you yourself as His fee! When He heals you of your soul-sickness, He takes you to be His forever, but He wants nothing from you. Only trust Him. Only cry to Him.’
Spurgeon, Charles. “Sickness and Prayer, Healing and Praise.” The Charles Spurgeon Sermon Collection, thekingdomcollective.com
So the catalyst to healing is also the payment for healing: faith and trust in Him.
If you need a prayer for any kind of healing—mind, body, or spirit—please don’t hesitate to email me at thestoneandtheoak@iCloud.com and I will pray to the Great Physician on your behalf.
with His love,
Adelaide