As I mentioned in my Instagram post, I was not terribly familiar with Acts before starting it. I had familiarity with the gospels, but Acts was somewhat of a mystery to me. And to my surprise, Acts is the most action-packed collection of fantastic (and harrowing) stories of the apostles as they begin to build …
Something that struck me while reading John, which carried over from the previous three accounts of the gospel, was just how much Jesus rebelled from the standard order of things. I don’t intend for the word rebelled to carry a negative connotation— the things he was rebelling against were not in line with God’s purpose …
I didn’t want to write this post. My vanity almost kept me from writing it. But why else would God have allowed such a powerful season of anxiety in the year I was prepping for this blog—2019—if I wasn’t supposed to learn from it and share what I learned with others? Before I dive into …
I asked God to help me discover my focus for Mark since it is so economical in language. Fresh off my reader-response of Matthew in which I was a bit taken aback by the fortitude of Jesus’ frustration and anger, I dug into the book of Mark with a focus on Jesus as fully human …
As I work my way through Matthew, a thought crosses my mind: Jesus could have been just a teacher. He could have put all of his earthly energy into speaking the truth about God and training his disciples. He did all of that, of course, but it is important to note just how much time he spent healing— taking illnesses and bearing diseases (Isaiah 53.4, Matthew 8.17, ESV).
Experts cite around 40 distinct examples of Jesus healing in the gospel, but these are simply the instances highlighted in detail. We know there were many more based on the references to Jesus healing multitudes:
So his fame spread throughout all Syria, and they brought him all the sick, those afflicted with various diseases and pains, those oppressed by demons, those having seizures, and paralytic, and he healed them”
Matthew 4.24, ESV
There is a reason I am paying particular attention to the verses on healing; I am in the midst of my own healing journey from a particularly bad spell of anxiety.
I found it odd that I felt a very strong calling from God to start this project, and then 2019—the year I wanted to plan out this blog project—was one of the deepest, muckiest manifestations of anxiety that I have ever experienced. I got very little planning done and spent much of the year in-and-out of doctors’ appointments and meetings with a counselor.
I realize now that God cared less about the branding and graphics for my blog and more about deepening my trust in Him. He wanted me to be humble in my content to include my difficult testimony in hopes of helping others. I’m sifting through my difficult experiences to try and present them in a way that will be helpful to you. When we are deeper into the accounts of the gospel, I’ll have them ready to share.
And so my reading of Matthew occurs through the lens of suffering and the hope of healing. Whether it was with a pen or my forefinger, I pressed into the healing passages, and I noticed something— there was a curious pattern to the healing stories included in Matthew’s account of the gospel: the most remarkable instances of healing are preceded by incredible faith of the afflicted.
The most remarkable instances of healing are preceded by incredible faith of the afflicted.
I began collecting these faith and healing pairings, many of which occur in the 8th and 9th chapters of Matthew:
8.1-3 A leper kneels before Jesus and acknowledges that Jesus has the power to heal him if it is His will: “Lord, if you will, you can make me clean.” Jesus responds, “I will; be clean.”
8.5-13 A centurion (a Roman military officer) came to Jesus asking for healing of his servant. Jesus indicates that he will travel to the servant and heal him, but the centurion believes Jesus’ power to be so strong that Jesus can heal with his words alone, right where he stands: “Lord, I am not worthy to have you come under my roof, but only say the word, and my servant will be healed.” Jesus is described to have marveled at this faith, and responds, “‘Truly, I tell you, with no one in Israel have I found such faith …Go; let it be done for you as you have believed.’ And the servant was healed at that very moment.’”
9.1-8 A group of unnamed people bring Jesus a paralytic on a bed. “And when Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, ‘Take heart, my son; your sins forgiven.'”
9.18-26 These passages contain two healing miracles that occur in the same story. A ruler came to Jesus and knelt before him and said “My daughter has just died, but come and lay your hand on her and she will live.” And when Jesus is faced with the girl, he proclaims to everyone that she is sleeping, not dead, and takes her by the hand to help the girl rise up. But, on the journey to the ruler’s house, we find another healing story (perhaps my favorite one). A woman who has had a discharge of blood for twelve years comes up behind Jesus and touches his clothing, saying to herself “If I only touch his garment, I will be made well.” And Jesus turns, and says to her, “Take heart, daughter, your faith has made you well.”
These situations are, by logical approach, absolutely helpless: a dead girl, a paralytic, an inexplicable chronic ailment. They are the kind of situations that would have doctors shaking their heads grimly, certain that nothing can be done.
And Jesus is right, these instances of faith are worth marveling at:
A leper believes Jesus can heal him from a disease with no known cure in that day.
A group of unnamed people believes Jesus can heal a man from paralysis.
An officer believes Jesus can heal his servant without even seeing him.
A woman with an unusual, twelve-year chronic ailment believes if she touches Jesus’ garment, her health will be restored.
And a ruler, who kneels for no one, kneels before Jesus in faith that he can revive his dead daughter.
Jesus doesn’t need our faith to perform miracles. So what is he doing here? My best conclusion is that he is rewarding the faithful.
He is rewarding the faithful.
Faith is not easy for those who love predictability. Faith is scary for those who want life to be controllable. But as Matthew is clearly illustrating, if you want the miracle–the impossible healing, you need to have faith in He who can heal.
In Lauren Daigle’s song “I am yours,” she addresses the link between faith and healing:
“and those who will kneel
will walk away healed”
Daigle, Lauren. “I am yours.” How Can It Be. Centricity Music, 2015, track 2.
There were times in 2019 when healing from anxiety felt impossible. I felt I was in a pit of mud getting sucked in deeper and deeper. I would grasp at branches near the mud to try and pull myself out, but to no avail. I exhausted myself in my vain mission to save myself.
And yet, in the middle of my misguided struggle I remember having this quiet feeling of hope–however small and far away it seemed; I knew that He would not allow me to stay in the mud forever.
And it became painfully clear that I could not heal myself no matter how feverishly I tried. But He could. Letting go of controlling the season of anxiety and subsequent healing meant I had to surrender to the pit of mud and trust that He would grab my hand and pull me out.
He did. Well, He is. I still have mud on me. I sometimes find a foot stuck back in that same mud pit. But the sooner I lean into faith and release the control, the sooner I find Him pulling me back onto solid ground.
Charles Spurgeon, in his 1865 sermon on healing, focuses on sickness in the spiritual sense, but much of what he says on that can be applied to bodily and mental illness as well. He outlines what we owe Jesus when we are healed:
‘But what is the Physician’s fee?’ asks one, who has vivid memories of earthly doctors’ bills. The fee—oh, the Physician will have you yourself as His fee! When He heals you of your soul-sickness, He takes you to be His forever, but He wants nothing from you. Only trust Him. Only cry to Him.’
Spurgeon, Charles. “Sickness and Prayer, Healing and Praise.” The Charles Spurgeon Sermon Collection, thekingdomcollective.com
So the catalyst to healing is also the payment for healing: faith and trust in Him.
If you need a prayer for any kind of healing—mind, body, or spirit—please don’t hesitate to email me at thestoneandtheoak@iCloud.com and I will pray to the Great Physician on your behalf.